Why You Can't Enjoy Good Things
Receiving Wound and Worth Groove
Your nervous system is a rescue dog who’s been handed a steak and is now staring at the plate thinking “OK, where’s the shoe you’re about to hit me with?”
A compliment arrives. You deflect it. Help is offered. “I’m fine, I can do it myself.” Love shows up. You start scanning for the catch. Success lands and your first thought isn’t “wonderful” but “now I need to prove I deserve to keep this.” Your amygdala has been working HR for your entire family since 1987. Screenshots every slight. “Forgets” every compliment. Thirty years of meticulous records proving you messed up once in 2003. But that time you saved the entire project? Deleted. Cache cleared. No backup available. Your inner archivist is very selective about what makes it into the permanent collection.
Your body doesn’t reject joy because it’s broken. It rejects joy because it doesn’t recognize the frequency. Happiness walks in and your nervous system asks: “Who are you? You’re not in my files. Do you have an appointment?”
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