🌑 The Doors Are Wide Open. Walk Through

A Solstice Gift for Paid Subscribers (+ Amazon Link for Everyone Else)

New Moon today. Winter Solstice in two days. New Year in a week.

Everyone’s talking about “new beginnings” and “fresh starts” and “setting intentions for 2026” as if the universe operates on a calendar system invented by a pope in 1582. As if your nervous system checks the date before deciding whether transformation is allowed.

Here’s what’s actually true: every moment is a door. Every breath is a potential recalibration. Every heartbeat is an opportunity to choose differently.

But also, and this is the part the hardcore “every day is equally sacred” people don’t like to admit, sometimes the field IS louder. Sometimes the collective energy creates a wave you can ride instead of swimming against. Sometimes the doors that are always there... swing a little wider. This is one of those times.

The darkest night of the year is coming. The moment when the light begins its return. Cultures across millennia have marked this threshold because human bodies FEEL it… the pause before the inhale, the stillness before the shift, the void that’s pregnant with everything that wants to be born. Your bones know this rhythm. Your blood has been cycling with these skies for longer than your mind has been making to-do lists.

So Here’s What I’m Doing

I wrote a book. It came through my nervous system like my vagus nerve had been taking notes for years, waiting for me to stop doom-scrolling long enough to take dictation. Twenty-one chapters showed up with the energy of “WE’VE BEEN TRYING TO REACH YOU ABOUT YOUR EXTENDED WARRANTY ON DESIRE and also here’s the actual physics of wanting, you’re welcome.”

BODY OF WANTING: A Somatic Guide to Desire, Intention & Manifestation

It’s about everything the manifestation industry conveniently left out. Why you’ve been visualizing so hard your third eye developed a squint while your fascia, vagus nerve, and bone marrow sat there holding the actual equipment for transformation. Why your amygdala has been screening your desires like an overprotective bouncer who hasn’t updated the guest list since 2003. Why your body has been trying to tell you something THIS WHOLE TIME.

The physics of hunger. The neuroscience of longing. The somatic technology that transforms wanting from passive daydreaming into electromagnetic event.

For My Paid Subscribers: A Gift

This is my solstice-christmas-new year-whatever-word-resonates gift to you. Not because holidays require gifts. But because you’ve been here. You’ve been paying for my work before you knew what was coming. You’ve been trusting the frequency before the form arrived.

Starting today, I’m releasing the ENTIRE book, one part per day, right here on Substack. Why here and not just a PDF link? Because Substack lets you LISTEN. You can read it, yes. But you can also let it pour into your ears while you walk, cook, commute, stare at the ceiling at 3am wondering why your manifestation practice isn’t working.

Today: Part One (Chapters 1-2)

Tomorrow: Part Two. And so on, until the whole book lives in your library. Save them to a folder if you can’t read immediately. This is a full book. It’s not going anywhere. Let your nervous system receive it at whatever pace it needs.

If You’re Not a Paid Subscriber

No pressure. No guilt. Your nervous system has enough of that already. You don’t have to become a paid subscriber just because of this book. If that’s not right for you right now, financially, energetically, whatever, the book is available in print on Amazon.

👉 BODY OF WANTING on Amazon

Same words. Same protocols. Same physics of wanting. Paper you can hold, highlight, throw across the room when something hits too close to bone.

What’s Inside

21 chapters of what your nervous system has been waiting to hear:

⚡ Why desire is a signal from your future self reaching backward through time

⚡ The 10 somatic markers that distinguish true desire from ego projection

⚡ The four saboteurs living rent-free in your nervous system

⚡ Why the “neutral zone” where nothing happens is where magic assembles itself

⚡ Breathing protocols that speak directly to your vagus nerve

⚡ A 7-day rewiring program and the Master Ritual

⚡ The eight archetypes of desire

This is for every woman who was told her hunger was too much. Your body knew the truth before anyone gave you permission to want it.

The doors are open. The field is loud. Your bones already know which threshold is yours.

Part One begins below. 👇 With love and the appropriate amount of profanity,

Dea

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P.S. If you celebrate anything this season, may it include the radical act of wanting what you want without apology. And if you don’t celebrate anything, may the longest night remind you that darkness isn’t absence. It’s where everything begins.