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Alicia Kwon's avatar

Shortly after you wrote this, when I was still technically taking a break, because I needed to disentangle my soul from a few places it felt it had snagged, I got the nudge to hop on and read your piece. A little while after that I had the sense that you - Dea guided me to where I had collected a few items I’ve had out that I couldn’t bring myself to do anything with other than leave them where they were on the floor, patiently waiting to have me photo them for you. Lots of love. <3 xoxoxo

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Dea Devidas's avatar

But still no pictureees, can't find that tag... please heeeelp

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Dea Devidas's avatar

Ohh… you felt me the way soul recognizes soul.

Thank you for letting the pause speak, and for following the nudge.

Can’t wait to see what’s been waiting quietly for us on that floor.

So much love back to you, always. 💛🌀

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Jo-Ann Petrarca's avatar

This was such a heartwarming read. Thank you for speaking of remembering birthdays of loved ones, I still put them on the calendar too. Blessings to you hun.

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Dea Devidas's avatar

You are so sweet, thank you! There’s something truly special about keeping those dates alive, isn’t there? A quiet way of honoring love that never fades. Blessings to you too! 💙✨

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Jo-Ann Petrarca's avatar

Yes there is something special about that. It was a good friends birthday on the 17th and he left on Samhain, it was 1993 and I found him. I will always celebrate those who are gone, never to forget…

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Naomi Cabral's avatar

Happy birthday to your beautiful mom. I felt this profoundly as I lost my mom nearly exactly three years ago. I know for sure she always there. I dream of grizzly bears right around her birthday. It’s like she feels my grief and wants me to know she’s still my forever mama bear. Couldn’t think of a better protector to be my heavenly eyes and ears.

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Dea Devidas's avatar

💙 Happy birthday to your forever mama bear. I felt every word you wrote, and I love how she sends you grizzlies: fierce, strong, protective, just like a mother’s love that never fades. And truly, no one guards their young like a mother bear, it’s a symbolic classic. Your mama clearly sends all her strength of protection that way, and that is just beautiful. She’s with you, always, woven into every dream, every whisper, every quiet moment when you suddenly feel her presence. And I know she’s watching over you with all the love in the universe, just as mine is for me. Thank you for sharing this: it means more than I can say. 🌊✨🦚

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Naomi Cabral's avatar

Aww thanks, Dea. It’s not her birthday but her heavenly bday is approaching in another few weeks. I’m finally in a place where I can celebrate as you wrote about here. First two years still really sucked but I’m coming around full circle now where I’ve been wanting to dig up more stuff about her life and research some of the stories she passed on to me before she transitioned into the light.✨

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Dea Devidas's avatar

💙 Both dates hold power, both are thresholds, both are sacred. The moment of stepping into life and the moment of stepping beyond it: each carries its own ritual, its own weight, its own kind of celebration. And somehow, in the remembering, laughter and tears always seem to walk hand in hand.

💙 The process is real. Those first two years were absolute hell for me, too. But a hell of initiation, one that forced me to awaken every dormant knowing of my soul: breathwork, healing, the alchemy of presence - just to survive. Not to "move on," not to "heal" in the way the world expects, but to learn how to be at peace with a reality that will never be the same.

💙 I love that you are now at the place of wanting to uncover more of her stories, to trace her footsteps, to keep weaving her essence into your life. That is a circle completing itself. That is beautiful. 💙✨

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Cindy Johns's avatar

Amazing. Thank you

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Dea Devidas's avatar

Thank you for being here 💙

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Sublime Feminine Arts's avatar

Beautiful, deep and true ♥️ Thank you for sharing your story about your relationship with your mum and how you keep it alive all these years 🙏🏽✨🪽 More connection with the loved ones from afar please 💜 I use these practices as well on their birthdays ☺️ Sending a resounding hug and joyful luminosity 🌟

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Dea Devidas's avatar

💙 Thank you, truly. That means so much. There’s something profoundly sacred about keeping these connections alive: not just in memory, but in energy, in presence, in the way love never really leaves. I love that you honor your loved ones in this way too. More of this, always. More connection, more luminous remembering, more love that stretches beyond time and space. Sending you a deep, resounding hug and all the light your heart can hold. 🔷🌟💫

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Trudi Nicola's avatar

Dea this is the best piece you’ve written. I feel the love for your mama and hers, for you. The gifts she bestowed on you are indeed timeless and her portal is always open, connected fully to your heart space. She is so proud of how you’ve manifested her dreams for you! And those songs. I have tears in my eyes as they were also my mum’s theme tunes. Sending you a huge cosmic hug and much love on this blessed day, the day I understand that the divine feminine has returned. Perfect timing. ❤️🌟

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Dea Devidas's avatar

The biggest, deepest thank you. What you said means the world to me, not just because of the words, but because you are the one saying them. That alone makes it even more powerful. 💙 And thank you, too, for sharing about your mother. It was your story, the one with the feather, that nudged me to actually write what I was feeling. And now here we are, full circle, with tears: tears of joy, of wonder, of this beautiful, sacred connection. I’m crying too, from gratitude, from awe, from the sheer magic of it all. And thank you. Thank you, thank you. 🌊✨🦚

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Trudi Nicola's avatar

You’re so welcome, Dea. I felt this, too. Such a powerful thing, a mother’s love. So glad our paths have crossed!❤️✨

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Dea Devidas's avatar

Yes, it's a Miracle 💙💛🩵🌞

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Marissa's avatar

And this is why I continue to remain hidden

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Marissa's avatar

BS

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tarotbyphil's avatar

A beautiful tribute to, and remembrance of, your mother. She is (yes, is) clearly very special.

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