NOVEMBER 2025: THE INTEGRATION (OR: PLEASE GOD NOT ANOTHER EGO DEATH)
A Survival Guide for Humans Who've Already Died Three Times This Year
Okay. So.
You thought you were done, didn’t you?
You thought after August’s cosmic reckoning, September’s reality-bending eclipses, and October’s “we need to have a serious conversation about your life choices” intervention, MAYBE, just MAYBE, the Universe would give you a fucking break.
You thought November would be, I don’t know, chill. Cozy. Pumpkin spice and gentle introspection. A little autumn reading by the fireplace while you integrate all that transformation you’ve been marinating in since summer. Cute.
November looked at your hope for peace and quiet and said, “Hold my beer.”
But here’s the thing, and I need you to really HEAR this, November isn’t here to kill you again. You’re already dead. You died in August. Got resurrected in September. Had a full-blown identity crisis in October. Your ego has been reconstructed more times than a celebrity’s face. Your nervous system is EXHAUSTED. Your shadow has been doing so much work it deserves PTO and a 401k.
November isn’t asking you to transform AGAIN. November is asking: Okay, so who the fuck ARE you now? And more importantly: can you actually LIVE as that person, or are you gonna keep playing the old character out of habit because at least it’s familiar? This is not another death. This is the part where you figure out if resurrection actually STUCK, or if you’re gonna respawn as your old self because the new you feels too weird, too raw, too uncomfortably REAL.
Here’s what’s actually happening:
Six planetary frequencies are moonwalking through your subconscious like they own the place (they do). Zero eclipses to blame your drama on. And one absolutely UNHINGED cosmic moment on November 20th when the Universe opens a portal and basically asks if you’d like to download Human Consciousness 2.0 directly into your already-fried nervous system.
But unlike the past three months, where everything was FIRE and DESTRUCTION and PSYCHOLOGICAL WARFARE, November is different. November is what happens AFTER the tower falls. November is you, standing in the rubble of your old life, holding a blueprint for the new one, and realizing: Oh shit, I actually have to BUILD this now. I can’t just keep having revelations and crying in the bathtub. At some point I have to, like, LIVE differently.
Welcome to the integration phase, baby.
It’s not sexy. It’s not dramatic. It’s not “manifestation” or “quantum leaping” or whatever TikTok is calling spiritual bypassing this week. It’s the messy, uncomfortable, absolutely ESSENTIAL work of taking everything you’ve learned about yourself in the past three months and actually EMBODYING it.
It’s saying no when you used to say yes.
It’s speaking your truth when you used to perform.
It’s choosing the person you’re BECOMING over the person you’ve BEEN, even when the old version feels safer.
And yeah, your nervous system is gonna HATE it at first. Because your nervous system, bless its traumatized little heart, has been in survival mode since August, and survival mode’s favorite hobby is CLINGING TO THE FAMILIAR even when the familiar is literally killing you.
So here’s what November is offering:
Not another breakdown.
Not another dark night of the soul.
Not another “who even am I anymore” crisis.
But a question: Can you actually BE the person you’ve been becoming? Can you walk through the world as your integrated self? Can you let the new operating system RUN without constantly reverting to the old one because the old one had all your saved passwords?
This month is part three of a trilogy you didn’t audition for.
August was the breakdown.
September was the void.
October was the reckoning.
November is the reconstruction. And reconstruction, my love, is harder than destruction. Because destruction is dramatic. Destruction gives you something to DO. Destruction lets you feel like something’s HAPPENING. But reconstruction? Reconstruction is SLOW. It’s repetitive. It’s choosing the new pattern over the old one, again and again and again, until the new pattern becomes automatic.
It’s physical therapy for your SOUL. And just like physical therapy, it’s gonna hurt in weird places you didn’t know existed, and you’re gonna want to quit seventeen times, and some days you’re gonna “forget” to do the exercises and regress back to old movement patterns.
But if you stick with it? If you actually SHOW UP for the integration instead of just intellectually understanding it? By the time December rolls around, you won’t just know who you are. You’ll actually BE IT.
So yeah.
November 2025 is not here to fuck around. But it’s also not here to destroy you. You’re already destroyed, babe. The tower already fell. The death already happened.
November is here to ask if you’re brave enough to LIVE in the new world you’ve been building in the ruins. And before you can say “but I have a dentist appointment on the 15th,” Mercury’s about to go retrograde, your phone’s gonna autocorrect “I’m fine” to “I’m barely holding it together,” and honestly? Your phone knows. Your phone has ALWAYS known.
Let’s do this. 🖤✨💀🔥
THE VIBE: Integration Feels Like Shit (But It’s Actually Progress)
Yeah, I know. You’ve BEEN in the dark. August was dark. September was darker. October was “is this rock bottom or is there a basement?” dark.
November is DIFFERENT dark. This isn’t “everything’s falling apart” dark. This is “I’m sitting in the ruins trying to figure out what to build and I’m so fucking tired but also I can’t go back to who I was” dark.
This is the dark where you’re not drowning anymore, but you’re also not on solid ground yet, and you’re just... treading water in the in-between, wondering if this is what “healing” is supposed to feel like because honestly it mostly just feels like EXHAUSTION.
And yeah. It is.
Because here’s what nobody tells you about transformation: the DOING of it is actually the easy part. It’s dramatic. It’s cathartic. You cry, you rage, you have revelations, you feel ALIVE even when everything’s burning.
But the LIVING of it? The daily, mundane, repetitive choosing of the new pattern over the old one? That’s where most people tap out.
Because your body, your beautiful, traumatized, pattern-seeking body, has been running the same software since you were six years old, and now you’re asking it to learn a completely new operating system while ALSO managing all your regular responsibilities like work and relationships and remembering to eat vegetables.
Your nervous system is FRIED.
And I’m not using that word lightly. I mean your nervous system has been in active stress response since summer. Your vagus nerve is exhausted. Your adrenals are begging for mercy. Your gut, which is literally your second brain, is staging a full workers’ revolt.
What’s happening in your meat suit:
Your brain has been pruning neural pathways like it’s Marie Kondo-ing your entire consciousness since August. Every thought pattern that doesn’t serve your new self? DELETED. Every trauma response you’ve been running since childhood? Your amygdala is finally like “actually, we don’t need this anymore.”
But here’s the thing about neuroplasticity: it takes TIME. And REPETITION. And SO MUCH ENERGY.
Your brain is literally building new highways while still having to use the old roads, and sometimes, a LOT of the time, it’s gonna default back to the old route because that’s the path of least resistance and your system is TIRED.
This isn’t failure. This is BIOLOGY.
Your pineal gland (that little pinecone-shaped mystery that produces melatonin and possibly DMT and is either “the third eye” or “just a gland” depending on who you ask) has been vibrating at frequencies usually reserved for people who meditate in caves for 40 years. Except you’ve been accessing this while stuck in traffic, doing laundry, pretending to pay attention in Zoom meetings, and trying to remember if you’ve showered today.
So yeah. You’re tired. You’re SO tired. And November isn’t here to give you rest. But it IS here to give you PURPOSE for the exhaustion.
Because this month, all that inner work you’ve been doing? It’s time to EXTERNALIZE it. To actually LIVE as the person you’ve been becoming. To make choices from your new operating system instead of your old one.
And that, my love, is where the real magic happens.
Not in the breakdown. Not in the revelation. But in the boring, daily, repetitive CHOICE to be different.
PHASE ONE: YOUR BODY WANTS TO DO THINGS BUT YOUR SOUL STILL NEEDS TO PROCESS
November 1-10: The Exhausted Action Paradox
You’re already tired when November starts. Like, bone-deep, soul-level, “I-don’t-even-remember-what-rested-feels-like” tired.
And then November 4th hits and Mars (your action impulse, your GET SHIT DONE energy, your life force in motion) moves out of Scorpio’s psychological deep-dive and into Sagittarius’s LET’S GO ON AN ADVENTURE vibe.
And your body’s like: “Wait. Are we DOING things now? I thought we were processing. I’ve been processing since AUGUST. I’m GOOD at processing now. I have a PhD in processing.” But Mars doesn’t care about your processing degree. Mars wants to MOVE.
In body terms: Your sympathetic nervous system (the part that makes you GO) just woke up from a three-month nap and wants to RUN, but your parasympathetic nervous system (the part that makes you REST) is like “absolutely the fuck NOT, we’re still recovering.”
So you’re stuck in this weird limbo where you feel RESTLESS but also EXHAUSTED. You want to start new projects but you can’t focus. You have IDEAS but no ENERGY. Your spirit is willing but your flesh is like “have you SEEN the past three months?”
This is normal. This is EXPECTED. This is your system trying to integrate movement with healing, and they’re not friends yet.
November 5th: SUPERMOON IN TAURUS
Oh good. PERFECT timing.
The Moon gets as close to Earth as it’s gonna get all year, which means it’s gravitationally YANKING on your emotional water (you’re 60% water, you’re basically a walking tide), and it’s doing this in TAURUS. You know what Taurus rules? Your BODY. Your RESOURCES. Your SENSE OF SAFETY. Your relationship with MONEY and FOOD and PHYSICAL COMFORT.
So the Moon gets LOUD about all that, while the Sun in Scorpio whispers: “But what if we just... let it all go and transform completely?”
And you’re standing in the middle like: “CAN I PLEASE JUST HAVE ONE MONTH WHERE I DON’T HAVE TO CHOOSE BETWEEN STABILITY AND TRANSFORMATION?”
Spoiler: No. No you cannot.
But here’s what’s different this time: You’ve been here before. August asked you this question. September asked you this question. October DEFINITELY asked you this question. And each time, you chose transformation. You chose truth. You chose the uncomfortable growth over the comfortable stagnation.
So this time? This time your body KNOWS what’s coming. And it’s not surprised anymore. It’s just... tired. And a little annoyed. Like “okay, FINE, I’ll transform AGAIN, but I’m doing it while wearing sweatpants and I’m not being cute about it.”
Symptoms you might experience:
Suddenly VERY aware you have a body (and it has COMPLAINTS)
Eating feelings, then having feelings about eating feelings, then eating feelings about having feelings about eating feelings (it’s a whole thing)
Your bank account making you physically nauseous (same as August/September/October but MORE because you’re TIRED of money being an issue)
Wanting to be held but also if anyone looks at you wrong you’ll scream
Crying because you deserve nice things (you do, and you’ve been working on believing this since AUGUST)
This is your body trying to find stability while everything internal is still shifting. It’s not a setback. It’s RECALIBRATION.
November 7th: VENUS SQUARE PLUTO
[Cosmic sigh]
Okay so THIS transit.
You know what? You’ve done this work before. In different forms, but you’ve DONE IT. August made you look at your shadow. September made you sit in the void. October made you face your patterns.
So when Venus (your relational intelligence, your love frequency, your values) squares off against Pluto (the Lord of the Underworld who STILL has receipts from 2003), you’re not starting from zero. You KNOW your shadow now. You’ve had coffee with her. She’s been drunk-texting you for three months.
But here’s what’s new: Now you have to figure out how to RELATE from your integrated self instead of your wounded self. This isn’t “oh my god I have abandonment issues” (you BEEN knew that). This is “oh my god, I KNOW I have abandonment issues, I’ve WORKED on my abandonment issues, so why am I still acting from them in my relationship?”
Because knowing isn’t the same as embodying, baby.
Your relationship patterns don’t care that you had a breakthrough in August. They care about what you DO when you’re triggered. And right now, you’re getting triggered, and your old pattern is RIGHT THERE, offering to take over, and it would be SO EASY to just... let it. But you won’t.
Because you’ve come too far. You’ve done too much work. You’ve died too many times to resurrect as the same person.
So instead, you’re gonna feel the trigger. Breathe through it. Notice the old pattern trying to activate. And then slowly, awkwardly, imperfectly… choose differently.
And it’s gonna feel WEIRD. It’s gonna feel WRONG. Your nervous system is gonna be like “ABORT ABORT THIS DOESN’T MATCH OUR SURVIVAL PROTOCOL.”
But you’re gonna do it anyway. Because that’s what integration looks like. Not big dramatic breakthroughs. Just small, uncomfortable choices. Again and again and again.
November 9th: MERCURY STATIONS RETROGRADE
And here we go AGAIN. Mercury (your internal narrator, your mental processing system, your communication frequency) looks at the past three weeks, says “actually, I have NOTES,” and starts walking backwards through your belief system with a red pen.
But listen, you’ve been through Mercury retrograde while processing massive transformation before. This isn’t your first rodeo. What’s DIFFERENT this time is that your beliefs have already been shattered and rebuilt twice since August. So Mercury retrograde isn’t coming in to DESTROY your worldview. It’s coming in to REFINE it. To take all those big revelations you’ve had and actually INTEGRATE them into a coherent philosophy that you can LIVE by, not just intellectually understand.
What this feels like:
Starting sentences and forgetting where they’re going (your brain is REORGANIZING, give it a minute)
Your ex texting you (the retrograde summoning spell is REAL, but this time you’re not responding because you’ve LEARNED)
Technology acting feral (same as every retrograde but somehow more annoying because you’re already tired)
Knowing something but not having words for it yet (because the NEW truth is downloading and the old language doesn’t fit)
Here’s the gift: You KNOW how to do this now. You’ve been doing deep internal work since summer. This is just... more of it. But you’re BETTER at it now.You have TOOLS. You have AWARENESS. You have a THERAPIST (hopefully).
By November 10th, you’re deep in the integration soup, and nothing makes perfect sense, but that’s OKAY because you’ve learned that clarity comes AFTER the confusion, not before it.
You’re not lost. You’re PROCESSING. There’s a difference.
PHASE TWO: THE PORTAL OPENS (AGAIN) BUT THIS TIME YOU’RE NOT SCARED
November 11-21: Expert-Level Transformation
If you thought Phase One was intense, remember: you’ve been in “intense” since summer. Your baseline for “a lot” is completely fucked at this point. What would’ve destroyed you then is now just “a Tuesday.”
November 11th: JUPITER GOES RETROGRADE
Jupiter (your expansion principle, your faith, your YES-AND energy) stations retrograde in Cancer (emotional security, home, nurturing). You’ve been expanding OUTWARD since August: new identity, new patterns, new ways of being. You’ve been GROWING through the discomfort. And now Jupiter says: “Cool. Now expand INWARD.”
Because all that external growth? It needs ROOTS. It needs a HOME inside you. It needs to feel SAFE in your body, not just intellectually sound. So Jupiter retrograde is asking: “Does this new version of you have a place to LIVE inside your nervous system? Or are you still just... trying her on like a costume?”
And honestly? You’re tired of this question. You’ve BEEN working on this. You’ve been trying to embody your transformation since AUGUST.
But here’s the thing: this is LAYER TWO of the work. August was discovering the new you. November is making her COMFORTABLE. Giving her a room in your internal house. Letting her unpack her bags.
Neurologically: Your reward circuits are recalibrating AGAIN (yes, again). Things that used to motivate you feel empty. But this time you KNOW why: because you’re not being motivated by fear or lack anymore. You’re learning to be motivated by ALIGNMENT. Which is harder. But better.
November 18th: MERCURY RETROGRADE BACKS INTO SCORPIO
Mercury was already retrograde, stumbling through Sagittarius questioning your entire worldview, but NOW it backs into Scorpio, and suddenly you’re not just questioning WHAT you think you know: you’re questioning WHY you built your whole identity around it.
This is deep. This is PRIMAL. This is “what did your parents teach you about safety/love/money/power and did you ever question if it was TRUE?” deep.
But you’ve been here before. Three months ago, you were in Scorpio energy for weeks. You KNOW this territory now. So this time, when Mercury digs up old wounds, you’re not shocked. You’re not destroyed. You’re like: “Oh hey, there’s that abandonment thing again. Yeah, we’ve met. Come on in, let’s talk.”
You’re getting GOOD at this.
November 20th: THE PORTAL (YES, ANOTHER ONE, BUT THIS TIME IT’S DIFFERENT)
Okay.
OKAY.
I know. You’re tired of “portals.” You’re tired of “once-in-a-lifetime transits.” You’ve HAD five “cosmic events” since August that were supposed to change everything. But THIS one? This one’s actually different. I promise. And I don’t use that word lightly anymore.
THREE THINGS HAPPEN SIMULTANEOUSLY:
1) New Moon in Scorpio at 28° (the “last call” degree: final death before rebirth)
2) Mercury Cazimi (your mind touches pure consciousness)
3) URANUS SEXTILE NEPTUNE AT 29°29’ (innovation meets mysticism, the future downloads into the present)
Here’s why this is different from every other cosmic moment you’ve experienced since summer: You’re READY this time.
In August, you were raw. In September, you were lost. In October, you were rebuilding. But NOW? Now you’re INTEGRATED enough to actually RECEIVE what this portal is offering. You’re not a blank slate getting destroyed. You’re a PREPARED VESSEL getting FILLED.
What’s happening in your brain: Your corpus callosum (the bridge between logic and intuition) has been under construction since August. NOW it’s finally FUNCTIONAL. Your left brain and right brain aren’t fighting anymore: they’re COLLABORATING. Your pineal gland isn’t just vibrating, it’s RECEIVING. Clearly. Cleanly. Without the static of old trauma patterns interfering with the signal.
You might experience:
Downloads that make SENSE (not just random cosmic data dumps)
Synchronicities that feel like GUIDANCE (not just weird coincidences)
Knowing what to do next WITHOUT OVERTHINKING IT
Your future self sending messages that you can actually UNDERSTAND
Clarity about your PURPOSE that doesn’t feel overwhelming, just... true
This is what happens when you do the work BEFORE the portal opens. You’re not just receiving the transmission: you’re READY FOR IT.
What you should do on November 20th:
You know the drill by now. You’ve been doing this since August.
Water. Darkness. Silence. Intention.
But this time, you’re not BEGGING for answers. You’re not DESPERATE for clarity. You’re just... OPEN. READY. AVAILABLE.
Ask: “What wants to come through now that I’m finally strong enough to hold it?”
And then LISTEN. Your Future Self has been waiting for you to be ready for this conversation.
November 21st: SUN ENTERS SAGITTARIUS
After three weeks in Scorpio’s underworld, AGAIN, the Sun moves into Sagittarius and you can finally BREATHE. But this time it feels different.
Because you’re not escaping the dark. You’re BRINGING THE WISDOM FROM THE DARK INTO THE LIGHT. You’re not running from what you learned. You’re EXCITED to see how you can LIVE it. This is what integration feels like: the darkness and the light aren’t opposites anymore. They’re COLLABORATORS.
PHASE THREE: YOU MADE IT THROUGH THE TRILOGY, NOW WHAT?
November 22-30: Living as the New You
This is it. The final phase of a three-month transformation arc that NOBODY asked for but EVERYONE needed. And you’re tired. God, you’re so tired. But you’re also DIFFERENT. Fundamentally. Permanently. Undeniably different.
November 22-24: Mercury Makes Friends
Mercury (still retrograde but almost done) makes harmonious connections with Saturn and Jupiter, and suddenly your thoughts aren’t just LOUD: they’re USEFUL. After three months of mental chaos, your mind finally feels like an ALLY instead of an ASSHOLE.
You can THINK clearly. You can PLAN realistically. You can make decisions that serve your NEW self instead of defending your OLD self. This is what you’ve been working toward since August: a mind that works WITH your transformation, not AGAINST it.
November 27th: SATURN GOES DIRECT
Saturn (the cosmic timekeeper, the inner force of STRUCTURE and DISCIPLINE) has been retrograde since July, asking you to rebuild your internal architecture. And NOW it goes direct. Which means: the foundation is SET. The structure is SOLID. You can start BUILDING on it.
You might notice:
Boundaries that used to feel impossible now feel... obvious
Saying no without guilt (WITCHCRAFT but you’ve earned it)
Time making sense again (what a concept!)
Decisions that used to paralyze you now feel... manageable
This is what happens when you do internal work for three months straight: eventually, it EXTERNALIZES. The spiritual becomes STRUCTURAL. The insights become PRACTICES. The vision becomes PLAN. You’re not just different internally anymore. You’re different in the WORLD.
November 29th: MERCURY GOES DIRECT
Mercury stations direct in Scorpio, and your brain FINALLY stops buffering. The mental fog that’s been with you since early November CLEARS. The confusion LIFTS. You can ARTICULATE what you’ve been processing.
But remember: Mercury doesn’t fully clear its shadow until mid-December. So you’re not instantly “back to normal.” You’re in NEW NORMAL. And new normal means: you can communicate your TRUTH clearly, but you’re still learning what that truth IS. Give yourself grace. You’re learning a new language: the language of your integrated self.
November 30th: VENUS ENTERS SAGITTARIUS
And just as November closes, Venus (your relational frequency) moves into Sagittarius, and LOVE REMEMBERS HOW TO BREATHE. After three months of intense relational work: shadow work, pattern interruption, choosing differently… Venus in Sagittarius says:
“Okay. You did the work. Now let’s actually ENJOY connection again.”
This isn’t bypassing. This isn’t forgetting. This is POST-INTEGRATION JOY. This is what relating from WHOLENESS feels like instead of WOUND.
And honestly? After everything you’ve been through since August? You’ve EARNED this.
THE SURVIVAL GUIDE: You Know This Drill By Now
Real talk: you’ve been surviving cosmic intensity since August. You KNOW how to do this. But just in case you need a reminder:
HYDRATE OBSESSIVELY Your lymphatic system has been working OVERTIME since summer. Water. Now.
MOVE YOUR BODY WEIRD Your fascia is FULL of three months of stored transformation. Shake it out. Dance it out. Weird stretches. Whatever moves the energy.
WRITE IT ALL DOWN Your mind is still processing. Get it OUT of your head and onto paper.
REST WITHOUT GUILT You’ve been in transformation mode for THREE MONTHS. Rest isn’t lazy. It’s NECESSARY.
TRUST YOUR BODY It knows what you need better than your mind does at this point.
DON’T:
❌ Make major life decisions Nov 9-29
❌ Shame yourself for reverting to old patterns (it takes TIME)
❌ Compare your progress to anyone else’s
❌ Forget that you’ve been doing this since AUGUST
❌ Ignore your limits just because you’re “almost done”
THE BIGGER PICTURE: You Survived the Trilogy
August broke you open.
September held you in the void.
October rebuilt your foundation.
And November? November is asking you to LIVE as the person you’ve become. Not just know it intellectually. Not just practice it in your journal. But actually EMBODY it in your daily life. Your relationships. Your work. Your BEING.
And yeah, it’s hard. It’s REALLY hard. Because living as your authentic self after years of performing is TERRIFYING. But you know what? You’ve been terrified since August. And you’re still here. You’ve faced your shadow. You’ve sat in the void. You’ve rebuilt yourself from the ground up. And now you get to LIVE.
Not as the person you thought you should be. Not as the person others wanted you to be. But as the person you ACTUALLY ARE. The integrated one. The authentic one. The one who’s been waiting for you to be brave enough to let her EXIST.
That’s what November is for. Not another death. Not another breakdown. But the CHOICE: daily, hourly, moment by moment… to be HER. To be the version of you that survived the trilogy and came out transformed.
You did it.
You actually fucking did it.
And now?
Now you get to LIVE it.
✨💀🔥🌙
November 2025: You’re not the person who started this journey in August. You’re not even the person who started this month. You’re the integrated version: the one who knows darkness and light aren’t opposites, they’re dance partners. And baby, you just learned the steps.
Welcome home.💫✨



I’m Sagittarius ♐️, so I have no idea what that means, 🫣🤓🙈💁🧐. And should I get a mouth guard like in football or the one that they have for teeth grinding sleepers?Decisions, decisions 😬😵💫🥴
Brava, sister!